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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2012|12:06 am]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Wow, it's been quite some time since I posted last. Quick update. Travis and I are living in a complex by Chase. Our first place alone together. A little adjustment period was needed but things appear to be in good shape now. We've got our routine down. I'm more in love with him then ever. We compliment each other well. Mainly I think because we have a mutual respect for one another. I've learned so much. I'm 30 now. 30. So weird to say sometimes. I feel like a completely different person. So strong. I'm in a good spot with friends, I'm attempting to go back to school. Finally getting stuff done at the dentist. I'm really trying to get my life on track and a lot of this started at Trav's urging. I don't know if I would've done it on my own. I deserve credit because I'm making the moves but I'm grateful to have someone supportive in my life. It's a big change for the previous. I never question if I'm loved.

We adopted a pup named Jack. He's a jack russell terrier and the love of my life. I was in need of a fluff. I have a deep love of animals and he's filled the spot that's probably having baby fever. He's such a character.

Still working for Chase. This is the one place I'm struggling. I need to find someone I love. this is not it but it pays the bills. So I'm stuck for now. Hopefully this changes sooner than later.

I'm over happy, healthy and loved. What more can I ask for.
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(no subject) [Dec. 4th, 2010|08:04 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

So I moved, again. Living with Megan, Matty and Callan now. So far so good. Just glad to be settled in. Man a year really flew by. This year is almost over and things are just crazy changing. I mean it's normal and a lot of it is good but some is sad too. I will miss my old roommates because they are good friends but I'm liking the new place so far too. It's kind of fun getting reacquainted with my old surroundings. I used to live in this exact same neighborhood around 9 years ago or so. It's changed some and stayed exactly the same too! It's so weird and fun at the same time. I'm still with Travis. I'm beyond happy with him at the moment. He's the sweetest guy. Not in the overkill kinda way either. He just does little thoughtful things and I notice. Just the way he incorporates me into his life in a way no one has ever done for me before. I think we're good for each other. He balances me when I start to stress he calms me down. He compliments me all the time and we take care of each other. He cracks me up and we always have fun together. I'm just really happy and lucky to have met him.

I finally saw my mom on Thanksgiving. I really miss her and want to see her more. It's so sad that we've grown so far apart. Everyone I know is pretty close ish with their parents. It's not like she does it on purpose but I feel like I don't have any parents sometimes. It upsets me because she's getting older and I feel like these are years we should be spending together as women. Becoming close on a different mother/daughter level. Able to be friends too. It's just a little disappointing sometimes. She did tell me she loved me and thought about me all the time. I needed to hear that. I deeply love her and hope we have a chance to be closer. When I get a car it will be different.

Work seems to be getting better. I'm really getting the hang of things. I'm quite happy in life for the most part right now. Other then the extensive weight gain I've had everything else is good. I really need to work out. I can't let myself get fat again. I MUST do something about this. It's quite depressing. On that note, I'm going to go. I'm out of things to talk about.
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(no subject) [Nov. 7th, 2010|08:54 pm]
sommerrae
Looking at New York...........NEW YORK? ME?!!! Life is taking a weird fun turn. Everytime I think I'm in a place life shakes me up. I think that's great. I'm happy.
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2010|07:15 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |thankfulthankful]

So it's been awhile since I've updated. I am sitting at Starbucks right now because our internet is down at the moment. Anyway, I got the job. I just completed my first week on Friday. I really like it there so far. I mean it's only been a week so far so I shouldn't get too carried away but the job doesn't seem too bad. I hope I love it. So far so good. I even knew a girl already in my training class so that was kind of cool. Everyone is super friendly. It really seems a lot like my previous job. Funny because they're competitors. I'm just really excited about working again. Makes me feel like a real person. ha ha It will be nice to have some decent money again and benefits and all that. Plus it's cool because even though my car broke down it's in bike riding distance so I usually do that or Orbit there. Tempe is the easiest place to get around if you don't have a vehicle. It's just making me strive to get a new one. I hope it works out and I do. I really need it!

Travis came into town two weeks ago. We spent the majority of the time together. He even requested some of my friend on facebook. I thought that was really cool. He likes my friends and they like him. We decided to make things exclusive so I guess that means he's my boyfriend. He's really sweet and really funny and we just get along great. We can talk on the phone about everything. It's refreshing to have someone who's so different then the jerks I've had before. He's not a pushover and he's not to demanding. Just right. His sister requested me on facebook too and he told his dad he was seeing a girl. :D I'm happy. Things are going well. So I'll end it on that note.
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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2010|02:57 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]

I had my interview yesterday. I feel like things went well. I showed up on time, looking nice I may add. My resumes that I went out of the way to update they didn't even look at. Which was kind of frustrating because I wasted money I don't really have on buying folders and running up to kinkos. Whatever at least I looked prepared. Plus it was nice that I was the only person there to interview. My last job was a group interview which was nerve racking. I feel like I was confident, friendly and positive. I showed up and an older woman walked me to the back and then I spoke with her and another gentleman. They asked me a series of questions and asked me to give examples. Then they asked me to go upstairs and speak with their boss. I got a good vibe and I think that went well. She seemed friendly and I had a lot to say when she asked questions. I just really hope I get this job. I am waiting to hear back now. It just seems so perfect. The pay is around what I was making, the location is literally down the street from my house so if my car does shit out then I can ride my bike and the hours are just a step below perfect. Perfect would be 9-5, mon-fri but whatever. It's close to it. So everyone send me good vibes please. :D
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2010|06:50 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]

I gained five pounds since I weighed myself last. FIVE FUCKING POUNDS. I want to cry. I can fix it but what the fuck. Time for some damage control. BIG TIME damage control.
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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2010|02:32 am]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |drunkdrunk]

I'd like to leave a good post for a change. Brad signed me up for a casino party. It was in downtown Tempe (Broville) so I was nervous because I'm not naked and 3 pounds. I ended having a blast. All the hot guys were SUPER nice to me. It's the first time I've ever been tipped at a casino function, 20 bucks to be exact! Also, Brad gave me these free drink tokens to some bar and told me I could pocket some. I'm just glad that even though we didn't quite work out as "lovers" we could still be friends. In the end that's all I really wanted.

Oh and also I found a fifty dollar paycheck in my work pants because I haven't worn them since my last party in April. So I made a decent amount that night. PLUS had fun. So I'm a big ball of stress.


All of my friends, even the ones I don't hang out with often are going out of town this weekend. EVERYONE I know is. I'm house sitting for my friend who's going to Ireland. So I can't go camping with everyone else. I need to save money anyway. I just don't know what I'd do all weekend. Makes me wish I had a "friend" to come over. I really like my crush though and the only person I'd know to invite over seems to be pretty into hanging out a lot. So I'll just stay alone. I'd rather stay alone than make someone think I like them more than I do. I can wait patiently and if it doesn't work out then....I'll move on.

Oh I talked to my MARRIED ex last night. He said all married people hate each other and that if he weren't married today he'd come for me and we'd be married. That he didn't realize how I was. " Loyal,attentive and loving" or something along those lines. We're nothing alike now though. I love him for what he is and I feel like we could be good friends but he'd never accept me for who I really am. He knew 19-20 year old Sommer. I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaaay different now. I don't think he could handle me.
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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2010|06:55 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |giddygiddy]

I have a crush! EEEEEP!
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2010|09:53 am]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |annoyedannoyed]

Today sucks. I feel gross, I gained weight even though I'm going to a trainer and eating how he tells me. Blech... my birthday is less than a month away and I'm not anywhere close to my goal. I have people that are interested in me but I can't bother to make an effort because I just don't feel like dealing with the stress and there's a possibility I'm getting booted from the show. Not positive yet but we'll see.

I'm sick of people's drama, especially when people don't have drama really so they create it for themselves because there's nothing else for them to do. It's annoying.

I realized I haven't purposefully seen mister in seven months. That's good but also sad because I miss having someone who knows me like he did and fully excepts me. I wish he hadn't been such an ass. I'm sure a few people wish that too though. Whatever I'm over it.
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(no subject) [May. 3rd, 2010|07:10 pm]
sommerrae
[Current Mood |blahblah]

I'm kind of tired of people who think they just know you so well....and they don't. They feel free to say rude things and make assumptions. It's pretty annoying. You don't know me as well as you think. Just because you have an idea of who you THINK I am doesn't mean you're right. Grrr...
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