||[Jun. 26th, 2010|02:32 am]
I'd like to leave a good post for a change. Brad signed me up for a casino party. It was in downtown Tempe (Broville) so I was nervous because I'm not naked and 3 pounds. I ended having a blast. All the hot guys were SUPER nice to me. It's the first time I've ever been tipped at a casino function, 20 bucks to be exact! Also, Brad gave me these free drink tokens to some bar and told me I could pocket some. I'm just glad that even though we didn't quite work out as "lovers" we could still be friends. In the end that's all I really wanted.
Oh and also I found a fifty dollar paycheck in my work pants because I haven't worn them since my last party in April. So I made a decent amount that night. PLUS had fun. So I'm a big ball of stress.
All of my friends, even the ones I don't hang out with often are going out of town this weekend. EVERYONE I know is. I'm house sitting for my friend who's going to Ireland. So I can't go camping with everyone else. I need to save money anyway. I just don't know what I'd do all weekend. Makes me wish I had a "friend" to come over. I really like my crush though and the only person I'd know to invite over seems to be pretty into hanging out a lot. So I'll just stay alone. I'd rather stay alone than make someone think I like them more than I do. I can wait patiently and if it doesn't work out then....I'll move on.
Oh I talked to my MARRIED ex last night. He said all married people hate each other and that if he weren't married today he'd come for me and we'd be married. That he didn't realize how I was. " Loyal,attentive and loving" or something along those lines. We're nothing alike now though. I love him for what he is and I feel like we could be good friends but he'd never accept me for who I really am. He knew 19-20 year old Sommer. I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaaay different now. I don't think he could handle me.